Fear – What it is?
Before birth on Earth we as a
Soul, with our Soul family surround the human form we will take on. The love
that we are pulsates out enveloping the human body we are to step into and the
human family. At birth we as Soul fill
the heart with ourSelves, our cosmic divine natal state as a being of love. Compassion
and joy flows from us. Most are drawn to
newborn energies ….within them is the song of perfected beingness of love, what
we remember deep within of ourselves and all.
Love is what we are. Love is what
we float in, are immersed in…for it is what all is. As a newborn we know this, see this energy as
well as many others. We know only
love…we may cry, be fussy because we are adjusting to a new body and world, but
within love is what we know.
Then something happens that is
not of the state of love, it could be anything that is not of this state, it is
foreign and penetrating and we feel for the first time in this new body another
experience….harm, dissonance, not familiar and there comes a choice within of
not being safe and with this through thought the emotion of fear is born. The fear in others had been observed while
being in this small body and now for the first time we feel it. Out of
this a belief is formed, it may take on any variety of words…. and of this
patterns and habits are created through choice to protect oneself, to shield …and
in this is the beginning of the ego stepping forward and taking control of the
life with threads of this choice, belief, patterns and habits weaving itself
sometimes consciously and others unconsciously through the life.
As we step forward in the life more choices are
made out of fear (doubt, sadness, grief, loneliness anger, hate, etc. are sourced from fear), creating more beliefs all married with its unique versions of
patterns and habits that become the way to live. In each step the ego takes on through the
illusion of fear the Mastery of directing the life blocking if you will our abilities to bring forth our innate wisdom where there is no fear, only clarity. Ego, doesn't know of this other way. It is
all innocent…and is destined to happen this way in a dual world, it truly can
be no other way in a world of harm. It
is not to be judged, it happened the way it did. We as Evolutionary Souls come here to
experience and evolve from dual ways. While
each person’s story of fear is unique the outcome is the same – separation from
-- Soul, one’s true knowing of the love one is, the compassion held within and
the pure state of joy that is ongoing in ourselves as Soul even as we live a
human life. Now, with the fifth domain
energies of love imbued on Gaia all can align
with these new energies and gently, lovingly through Soul’s love and wisdom lift up any fears bringing forth understanding. Once understanding is complete the fear can
be embrace totally in the energy of our love and dissolved for it is not needed anymore.
How fear and resistance curtails movement forward, how this feels, how it can stand in the way.
Living in fear in a human form is
the feeling of always living in quicksand. If there is movement then the quicksand
will swallow whatever is in the space completely. So instead there becomes non-movement. Non-movement is not stillness, it is non-movement,
non-engagement and is devoid not only of joy, but of love, truth, and generally
compassion for anything, first starting with self. There is a glaze to all things, a dull, thick
glaze, where either inaction or impulsive action not based on balance and
harmony spring from. There is a
permanent sense of drowning and a belief that if one stays there just like that
they will survive; staying in a state to not drown. There is not a plan of how
to get out; the safest thing is to stay immobile. There is a difference between this state and
the state of knowing when to move, take action of any kind in thought, word, or
deed. The latter is filled with peace
while this fear state is filled with frozenness of energy that acts out based
on what thought in the human mind activates it at what point. The picture of a deer frozen in car lights
portrays this so well as does one charging the car lights because it is
disoriented.
The underlying emotion/feeling is
powerlessness/hopelessness and through this are all kinds of human actions to
counter this emotion/feeling to feel powerful but yet all that is truly
accomplishing is keeping the
hopelessness/powerless at bay. It never
really does though. There becomes over
time a settling in of a mixture of numbness, hopelessness and belief that one
is destined to live out an existence in this way and one way or another it will
come to an end and freedom of the truth that still rings deep within will be
lived. One hopes deep within to achieve
this freedom from fear while in the form and with this to know thyself and if
not then in leaving the form something better has to exist.
Choice
Free will choice by the
human to allow the Soul’s way of love where fear does not exist is required for
this state of expression to change. Sometimes it is not remembered that there
is even a choice to change. The more
exhausting and sometimes deepening of fear comes when there is conscious
awareness to change, to let fear go, to participate in practices, experiences
that provides opportunities to choose other than fear and that choice is not
made. Why, when it is so apparent that
fear is deeply harmful would one hang on to the experience? I can answer from what I know as my
experience years ago. The quicksand
became so familiar that anything else seemed impossible to the human part of
myself. That out of building a pattern
of resistance filled with ego arrogance and complicity lodged the tendency
toward acting from fear deeper. Choice after choice of supporting fear hardened
it where it became an energetic concrete casing around me, gifting me mentally,
physical and emotionally human behaviors that were inclusive of fear. I say
gifting because all of this discovery
was embraced with true compassion for human
ego in myself and all; there was
extensive grace and wisdom that was birthed from deep honesty of realizing what
was true and what wasn’t….and I found fear wasn’t true. Laying
down fear, not picking it up again Soul presence expanded in my body bringing
with it more true understanding and the ability to presence love to all life
here on earth no matter what the circumstances.
I was not alone in allowing choice from fear to limit the life– it is a
universal occurrence for most people – fear is the inner ruler from human ego
in a dual world.
The first choice of fear and that
emotion started early on in the crib with true circumstances in my life to initiate
the pattern. The choice to continue ongoing
in my life was my choice. Through human
ego we became lodged in the addiction to the security, the smallness within,
the perceived yet not true safety… yet aware inside always of the untruths of
that way of living. This inner conflict keeps the spin going within, because we
keep choosing it. Fear always says one
is wrong, will do wrong, asks what is wrong….it has to survive. Engaging and
perpetuating it ensures its survival.
In choosing fear, we choose to not allow our love and the flow of joy to
create what is from the truth within. I
chose fear and the safety of isolation and separation, first from God (love),
mySelf and my council. I have to say you
wouldn’t have known this if you had known me…I like most people was very
social, loved people, had loving relationships….it wasn’t the outward expression
of my personality….it was the inward knowing.
Fear permeates every area of our
human life, to what we eat, how we walk, talk, how we are in every relationship,
concerns about other’s choices, money, honoring our Selves and much more. Resistance is its helpmate. Resistance is the behaviors that are adopted
to support and allow the fear to continue. Some examples of resistance include:
What
are your resistances, coping mechanisms when fear arise? Are they of the 7 above or different?
How do you push through fear and how can you respond differently? I
welcome your sharings.
In contemplation centered in your heart
connected to Soul lay aside the mind and set intention for the truth of the
matter. What is a fear you hold within,
it’s related choice, belief, resulting patterns, habits and threads through the
life? Explore until you are
complete. Now also centered in you heart
call forth your energy of love wrapping this fear and all of it’s story in
this. Watch it dissolve. If it comes back do it again ensuring not to
engage in all old reactions.
In fear is the absolute pure absence of
joy. Joy is the energy that allows
creation energy to come forth and is how creation, creativity as it is called
on Earth occurs. Joy is that flow of
energy that is truth enlivened that allows one to make an inspired meal, build
a stunning building, hug a child with abandon and create in perfect harmony with
one’s purpose of being. On Gaia inspiration
is the call for joy to move through like a wave does creating a newly sculpted
beachfront. What is joy like in the
cosmos? It is a never ending dance of
flow of creation and dissolution. All
Evolutionary Souls, as humans are, know through their music of joy what their
call to participate is in creation/dissolution that perfectly fits their
purpose. Joy is always singing within in
the perfect note that is known by each.
It is not a momentary experience, it is the expression of the perfection
of a particular Soul to express it’s perfection ongoing. The energy of joy is buoyant and flows
through each particular Soul in the way suited for that Soul. Joy expresses in perfect harmony of color,
sound and form. It is exquisite and always brings upliftment to life.
When fear and resistance are laid down what is the experience? Is what is feared, what the resistance about, real?
Pure peace, a quietness within
that all movement arises from. Choices, actions, are made from absolute knowing
of the right order of that choice in the moment. There is the complete absence of inner
conflict of any kind and a pulsating bliss fills everything within. There is
absolute assuredness of Soul, the Council and the true way of being. A situation
arises in life and through inner stillness comes clearly how to proceed in the
moment, with each step being shown as it is unfolding. The mind is still,
allowing connections of love, beauty, and appreciation to fill up the
being. There exists a deep sense of
unity and gratitude for all and a deep compassion for all that is not of this
knowing. Each situation is contemplated absolutely knowing that the choice made
will support all life because it is made in absolute pure integrity.
The love of the Godhead, Self, creation,
all is fully present. Harm is seen and understood for its origins in the human
ego. There is no judgment whatsoever -- it
is not possible to judge/condemn anything or anyone for the fullest knowing of
the innocence of how a dual world operates is ever-present.
The form belongs to the Soul and
it continues its expansion in it -- using it as the perfect beautiful vehicle
it was originally intended to be. The surrender lays aside the false claim of
power that has its voice in harm and more through force. A softness occurs, a softness that is like the
softness of a perfect scent from a perfect rose. It is you, permeates the form and all that
come in contact with you. The expression of love is experienced by those
around, uplifting all life. Unity with all life is of ongoing for separation
ceases.
The unique gifts of you come
forth and joyfully through wonder is there a sense of sharing them through this
form in this world. Expansion of soul presence within the body is ongoing, exploration
is open, learning continual and there is an ongoing expansion of the magic of
the collaboration that occurs both within and out of form. Over time the
seamlessness of the “unseen world” merges with this physical world living fully
in both as the Soul is in the cosmos. There is much laughter and true sense of
openness that is present and the only true desire is to allow and be of the
fullest expression of Soul through form, the truest expression of love, truth,
joy, collaboration and beauty, in service always to Soul thus Godhead and in this
to all life just by beingness.
In other words, is there anything there to fear, causing resistance, but fear itself?
Years ago when I wrote some of
this post as my first teaching in the Eros Seminary…my answer to this question
then was as follows: In preparing this writing
once again the fear arose…so I shifted up, continuing to remain in communion of
love with Soul, wrapping the fear in my love and the fear dissolved. Fear,
is not real…for in a moment, choosing ongoing it is not here now. All I am experiencing is the love, the love
of that that created me, the cosmos – all of it. I am that love and embrace it
fully in all things and joyfully look to the continuing expansion of these
truths realized through me.
Closing
It has been said by many to
create peace in the world is to become this peace. When you do you can only create in a way that
is your unique way of wonder that will uplift all life, with love, wisdom, joy and
beauty. Nothing else is possible and
there is never a question of anything but this. To
sculpt the 5th Domain energy that is of earth now into a new world
where there is no harm and only love
exists can only be created from peace...
lasting, ever present, all abiding peace that is the result of allowing all that
you are as love, compassion and joy to come forward. This freedom is your divine inheritance, is only filled with awe and what
you came here to be and co-create from…..all that is needed is your choice.
These are the truths I found within and cannot be another's unless they know within themselves. Your sharings of the heart are so welcomed and very appreciated.
In my love and great peace Dear Brothers and Sisters ~
Deb Evans (Azura)
erosdd@gmail.com
debfevans Skype
FB: Eros Global Community and Deb Evans
Linkedn: Eros Dei Dictum
These are the truths I found within and cannot be another's unless they know within themselves. Your sharings of the heart are so welcomed and very appreciated.
In my love and great peace Dear Brothers and Sisters ~
Deb Evans (Azura)
erosdd@gmail.com
debfevans Skype
FB: Eros Global Community and Deb Evans
Linkedn: Eros Dei Dictum
